The start of a brand new year is typically shared in with celebrations, hopes, dreams, resolutions and goals for the upcoming year ahead. Mine as you can well imagine, was brought in with an enormous mound of grief and sadness. I thought a lot about the years past and even some of the great memories of 2010. However, my mind quickly zoomed to August 22nd…..the day my world stopped turning. I have this continual knot in my stomach and lump in my throat, and I wish, that I could turn back time…if only for a moment.
My heart is heavy tonight for everyone that is missing Jessica. I am angry that my sister's kids have lost their mother and angry that to our earthly minds, none of this makes sense. I am trying to find the good and the purpose in this loss.
I thought a lot today about when people make new years resolutions and how silly they are because 9 times out of 10 you set unrealistic goals. I have set ONE goal for my life and that is TO MAKE IT COUNT. We get one shot on this earth and as we have seen, life is gone in moment and often times without warning. Make yours count! I want what I do every day to make a difference in either my own life, the lives of my future children or the lives of others. I’m going to make it count for my sister.
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